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Photo by  Ba Tik  from  Pexels I made peace with the fact that death is inevitable and comes unexpectedly. I was just made aware that I’m practically dying. The timer started the day I was born, and now I know that. What I did not know, and I did not approve of in the first place, was the lifelessness that I would feel, even when I’m still alive. I’m talking about: having no control and essence in your life. People determining what is right for you, and what is not, what you should do, and what you should stay away from. There exist this social construct, wherein you would have to reform your pentagonal shape to fit into a quadratic hole because it’s what the normal is. I had to deconstruct myself in the approval of people. There were times in my life when I went below their level of expectations, and then, in a snap of a finger, I equated to nothing. I used to be no one in high school after I wasn’t announced for the first time as an honor student. I...

We seek refuge in music. When the inevitable breakup finally comes, we surrender ourselves to the lyrics of Adele. When someone has done us wrong, we feel a little vindictive, and dance our problems away to the beat of  “Shake It Off.” When we’re on our best moments, we can’t help it but to blast our ginormous speakers, and disrupt the whole neighborhood, with the British Synth Pop band called “The 1975.” Anywhere you are in life, there’s always a soundtrack to what you’re feeling.  Anyone who doesn ’t listen to music is in no excuse, a psychopath! Taylor Swift's "City Of Lover" Concert in Paris In the midst of crisis, there’s always something in store to lift our spirits up. John Lennon’s Imagine has remained symbolic after all these years and has been with us through trying times like this. Just like the famous quote from an anonymous Buddha, “When words fail, music speaks.” Music, is a way for us to understand the complexity of our emotions. It is the ...